Well I am not even sure if I should post this, write this or make it public or not? Life has been challenging since March. I am not sure if it is work related, just me, or life and people in general. I will let you be the judge.
I have been really struggling with dealing with work and personal life. Pre-pandemic I have always been able to find an outlet and be able to talk with a friend or two in person. Have always have had at least one sounding board so to speak. The Pandemic hit and that went away. I have not had that outlet. The social distancing guide lines prevented visiting, prevented getting out and doing things and prevented socializing. And in some ways that was ok. Less people equaled less interactions, less interactions amounted to less stress less conflicts.
Post pandemic and restrictions being lifted and life getting back to normal you would think that life would be better. I am finding that this is not the case. I am not sure about you or any one else but the lack of interactions seems to have created a problem. I think I have forgotten how to “people” and I think other people have forgotten how to people to. My ability to resolve conflicts seem to have gone away, my ability to interact has been diminished. I struggle daily with the simple daily interactions of life.
I am also dealing with other personal things which I am not going to delve into here. These things are to personal to post publicly, but I am working on them. I am re-evaluating just who I am, where I have been, where I am going. And there are days where I do not think I recognize myself. Or maybe my self identification is incorrect. I am re-working personal boundaries, re-working how I interact with the world. Life goes forward not backward.
So my dear readers, friends please stand by do not adjust your sets. I am still here. Still will continue to write when I can and write about the things I feel safe writing publicly about. Consider this a check in “How Are You Doing?” If your inclined drop a line or two. Check in on the people who are in your circle. Remember to that possibly we are all struggling to regain normalcy as this pandemic situation finally dies out.